This whole "Getting help for depression when you have no money and no health insurance" thing is really, REALLY fucking complicated. And stressful. And not done yet because even though I got to the place at eight AM they were completely booked by the time we got my paperwork done.
It probably did not help that I started panic-sobbing when we hit our first hitch (I have a relative that works at the office, which is how I knew where it was and that I might qualify. This would normally mean I'd have to go to a different town for services, which I couldn't do because no transportation or time) and then almost passed out when the intake lady showed me the pay scale that meant I'd qualify for free services. So the good news is I can get help....just as soon as I make it to the office in time to get a free slot for a walk-in appointment.
But it is FUCKING HARD to get help, guys. Especially if you don't have a lot of free income. I am now overstressed and will go spin yarn while watching a movie to unwind. Further updates and book things will be posted once I no longer want to curl up in a corner and cry.